For the past few months, I've had this feeling which, when I tell people about it, is often a reason for them to look at me funnily. You see, I wouldn't mind if I were to wake up tomorrow and I had skipped over the next ten years of my life and I'm married, with a kid or two, in a house, with a cat, with a car, with a job, with a husband, settled and happy. I wouldn't mind a 9-5 job and being settled in my ways, with my family and my pets, going out for walks in the park on Sundays, maybe visit some family the day before. Coming home in the evening, preparing some food, watching some tv after dinner. Go to bed at a reasonable hour, snuggle up with my husband under the duvet. Wake up the next day and do the same. I wouldn't mind being settled. I'm only 22 years old, but I wouldn't mind being 35 and having the "grown-up" life. I wouldn't mind skipping over the whole "finding a job, meeting the one, falling in love, engagement, get married, move to a nice house, get babies, get pets"-thing and just get to that point where you are settled in life.
I think I might be too old for my age.
I've felt that way since ... uhm ... I don't know, ten years or something? But I can assure you living in the now is worth it!
ReplyDeleteYes, do live now (too).
ReplyDeleteYou need lots of stories to tell that husband and those children! And memories to look back on (everything is somewhat 'better' once it's behind you in the past, in a way) too.
Do you realise that being a mom and have a job and pets and a husband and a home and a family makes your life extremely busy and even exchausting? Lots of people wander back in their memories with pity and regret that the wonderfull days of sorrowless youth are gone.
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